I realized today that my irresponsible youth is gone. regardless of the fact I have no true aim I can't just do as I please anymore. I used to stay up all night reading and then sleep the day away, but that doesn't work when you work seven days a week between two jobs. Last night I stayed up far to late reading. I could have gone to be at a reasonable hour, I could have just put down the book and I'd have fallen asleep easily enough. I even thought about it at least a dozen times. Analyzed how much I'd be hating life today at work if I didn't go to sleep. Yet did I?
No, I most definitely didn't go to sleep before 4 am, which wouldn't be bad except my alarm goes off at 5:15 since I have to be at my nanny job by 6:15. So here I am at my day job dragging my feet and hating life just a little. I'm not nineteen anymore I have more responsibilities and have no excuse for why I want to act like a child, I'm not one. I need to start going to bed at a reasonable hour so I can get up and be more than a zombie at work. Is going to be a very, very long day yet.
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